“My therapist told me that reading the news was causing my depression. So I’ve managed to completely avoid it for the past five years. I used to consume articles for four hours every day. I’d always read the New York Times front to back, everything except the sports section. But then the Times caused the Iraq war so I switched over to leftist websites. I always thought it was my obligation as a responsible citizen to pay attention to bad news. I guess I was looking for some sort of understanding. If only I could learn enough, then maybe I could help organize something. But all of it just sent me into utter despair. I began to look at other people as brainwashed. Every time I saw someone having kids, I’d get angry. Don’t they realize how uninhabitable the planet is going to be? Everyone thinks if we just make a few changes, we’ll be fine. We won’t be fine. The problem is systemic and there’s no movement capable of ending capitalism in time to save the planet. But anyway, I’m trying not to obsess over this stuff anymore.”
i’m so so so tired of being the only person in this house who does anything like people are really comfortable just living in filth and won’t raise a finger unless i decide to clean up and organise
when my nephew is sitting on my lap and he’s “teaching” me the alphabet and colours and types of construction trucks and he has an amused smile on his face when i repeat the words back to him because he cant believe i am able to grasp those things is really the most beautiful fulfilling and joyous moments of my life i cant believe how much i incomprehensibly love him like how void of love was my life before he existed idk
